( Ratio is close enough, touching enough of him to feel the way Aventurine shakes until the words are out. Any vulnerability is hidden in his expression, but the other man knows him enough to know.
(And that scares Aventurine almost as much as the idea of his luck running out. People don't know him. They might be bribed with credits or smiles or promises on a big payoff later, but they don't know him. Ratio knows more than most, more than anyone has since he'd murdered his way to freedom.)
But he doesn't want Aventurine to go, and the shaky breath that he lets go he attempts to hide by kisisng Ratio again. Slower, this time, but no less desperate. He wants to map out every reaction, every sound, and if he's not going to go through with that idiotic surgery then Aventurine has time to do so.
His hands go up to cup Ratio's cheeks, thumbs running over impressive cheekbones as he tries to will himself not to shake apart. It wasn't supposed to be like this, he muses, he needs to regain some sort of upper hand so he can really drive home what a stupid idea ridding himself of love is. )
Do you want me to see if I can guess what is, doctor?
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(And that scares Aventurine almost as much as the idea of his luck running out. People don't know him. They might be bribed with credits or smiles or promises on a big payoff later, but they don't know him. Ratio knows more than most, more than anyone has since he'd murdered his way to freedom.)
But he doesn't want Aventurine to go, and the shaky breath that he lets go he attempts to hide by kisisng Ratio again. Slower, this time, but no less desperate. He wants to map out every reaction, every sound, and if he's not going to go through with that idiotic surgery then Aventurine has time to do so.
His hands go up to cup Ratio's cheeks, thumbs running over impressive cheekbones as he tries to will himself not to shake apart. It wasn't supposed to be like this, he muses, he needs to regain some sort of upper hand so he can really drive home what a stupid idea ridding himself of love is. )
Do you want me to see if I can guess what is, doctor?